I really dont have any idea about what people said about 'growing' until I come into this step:

1. When you met an old friend and they asked 'pacar kamu siapa sekarang?' instead of 'gimana kabarnya?'

2. When all your best friend is leaving the town one by one to make a better living and you yourself the only one who left.
and you are not belong to anyone, or anywhere.

3. When you realize you dont have a great plan to your future, and now you will make one.

4. When you have to do everything by yourself, like, going somewhere to try a new place, or window-shopping (put emphasis on window), or doing sports, or getting a haircut.

5. When you can clearly classified your friends into the real friend or the backstabber.

This is a life phase that will determine your own destiny, depends on your way of thinking.
So just stay positive,
dream big,
expect big,
and pursue it.

He once told me,
'the most important thing that I have to think of is, 'Will I be able to eat tomorrow?'

At first, I think it is too much for me to worry whether you can eat or not tomorrow
because you have friends and parents to lean on
who always right there next to you willing to give some help


But at this point, I really know how it feels to be like that
How freakin out I was when I only had a few rupiahs left on my purse
And I was gonna run out of gas,
And so was my internet connection,
And I really had no idea what would I have to eat for my break-fasting because I was so enough with instant noodle
And I was not so interested to tell this condition to my friend--I know it would take a long long explanation for that,
And even though I have my biological father here, he could do nothing for me.

You need much money to get a better life, don't you?